Always the butterflies.
In those aching days and weeks and months after the death of her 2-year-old daughter, Dr. Janis Gonzales started noticing them, fluttering yellow sprites around the cemetery in Santa Fe where her little girl was buried.
She accepted them as a sign, as a gift from Cariana, her beautiful little girl with the twinkling brown eyes who was diagnosed with acute myelogenous leukemia in her first year and who died in her second.
She has a tattoo now of a butterfly on her shoulder. It is another way to carry Cariana with her besides in her heart, her mind, her soul.